Two words, too hard, to keep. But let's try!

Annnnnnnnnnnd my mom's Rosetta Stone is apparently no longer in working condition so there goes that idea.  Throw me a purpose bone already.  You don't know what a purpose bone is?

Ya nut.  It's that thing that you just chew on, focus on, regardless of what else is going on around you.  And sadly, learning Spanish inwards and outwards and backwards (.......) will not be that bone.

And then I read something in a book.

"Die daily."

Yep, that's it.  My life should be centered around those two words.  I should not be so preoccupied with whatever I want that I forget to die to myself in order that Jesus might live through me.  Less Melissa, more Jesus.  Dying. Every day.

So after reading that I felt a little sheepish for being so preoccupied with how much it sucks to be bored.  If you're dead, you can't be bored.  If you have no ambition but to let yourself become less that God might become greater in your life, then boredom just doesn't have room to flourish.

It's a bigger than life concept.  It will take a lifetime of years and experience to apply it, but slowly, and maybe surely I can incorporate that into my life.

I dreamt I was getting a tattoo (of an honest-to-goodness rainbow of "characters" that I pretend to be in real life.. I kid you not the first line of the rainbow said "All those times I'm Irish".... woah, what?).  But when I woke up my first thought (after wondering how was I going to manage paying for this GIGANTIC character rainbow ode to self tattoo) was that if I was going to get a tattoo, it really should be "Die daily."

I had to remind myself in the grocery store (so that I didn't try to sneak ahead of an elderly woman at the checkout) and when I drove into the driveway and didn't feel like walking back to the mailbox to get the mail (nothing in there is ever for me anyway, or nothing good at least).  It's a hard proposition.  Like I said, one that's going to take a lifetime to get perfect.  But here's to today and every other day that we set ourselves aside and choose to die for the sake of something much, much greater than whatever we had planned anyway.

Amen.